deceive

Really feeling soooooooo sad to receive my results
Fuck!this is what I felt when I saw what appeared in my iPad
Then I cried just like a crazy people
I think that is what I can do

Having worked hard for so long time
I can't believe that my result
What the fuck
Sadddddddddd
The god is not justice
He have not seen all my hard work and gives me such a shitty results

Anyway I have decided to take the foundation already
I can't believe that I have to take the foundation
Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
But the course starts early in the jan
That means that I have to go aus before cny
Anyway I want to start my foundation quickly
I don't want to see my uec results anymore
I don't want to use it
I don't think that I am stupid or not hardworking enough
I believe that I can do well in my foundation
Trust me
I will

Not stress but nervous

I remembered that my first and last post was so stressful
I wrote it during my preparation for my uec exam
And this time I blog again because of my uec results too

Nervous nervous and nervous
I don't know if there is any word that can describe my feeling now
As I know, my results will be announced maybe tomorrow night or the morning after that
Oh my gosh
Really afraid to accept the results whether it is good or bad
I think most of the senior three students are just like me
Have the same feeling now

It is about 1.30 am now
A bit late but I really an fall asleep
When I sleep I will still dream about my exam my result
I don t know whether I have given myself too much stress or something
But just hate the shitty feeling now
Can the god tell me my result now
I am afraid that my hard work for these years will be wasted
I am afraid that my results are unsatisfactory
I am afraid that I am going to let all the people down including me
I am afraid afraid afraid
Ahhhhhhhhh

Please bless me god
Really please

Stress

I am definitely stressful now

My last exam is coming soon 

Two days left and I haven't finished my revision

Feel like crying loudly alone

I think I have not ever been so stressful before as I always finish my revision early

But I don't why

I am not in the mood to prepare this exam

Maybe there is a will in my heart :

I am not willing o face the exam

I am nervous now

Shit mood

I think I have to resume my study mood now

As there is a dream for me to achieve

Please give me a lot of energy pls

I am really lacked of it

Pls pls pls

And please god bless me!

I just found this blog which I had used it when I was 16 year old 

And I decide to activate this blog again as this is a perfect way to relief my stress

I have to study harder harder and harder

How I wish that I am not a senior three student having to face so many exam and making me stressful

I hate this stuff

But I don't wish to feel regarded when I receive my result in the middle of December

How I wish everything will go smoothly and I can't gain an entry to my ideal uni and start my dreamed uni life

It s okay

It s time for me to continue my studies 

Between I have to ring my fat dog to go for a walk

That s all about today